I PASSED!

YEAH I just found out I got a 262 on my LAST!!!! I'm on my way to certification! YEAH and celebration!

What To Do?

Ok, so this is me venting about dumb friends.. so last night I didn't have any plans so Dustin was gonna come over for open-dorm and just hang out. Then as I get off the phone with him, my roommate (who shall remain nameless) tells me that the whole gang of us are going to the diner. So I'm like 'oh that would be fun!' and she's like, 'well Justin said he's not going if Dustin goes, so Dustin can't go.' Upset doesn't even cover the emotions that flew through my veins! Justin is my very good guy friend and we hang out all the time, he doesn't get along with Dustin at all, but for my sake he's civil at least. But now he's saying that I can come but only if I don't bring Dustin? that's not cool. and then to top it all off I found out that a number of my 'friends' (are the quotes too mean?) condoned this behavior and agreed that he shouldn't be able to come. it upsets me because
A) no one seems to notice that it could bother me, they all seem to think that it is totally normal to put stipulations on the context of our time together.
B) I want Dustin to hang out with my friends and get to know them better, he already knows them (he went to Fl. over spring break last year with a number of them) but I want to hang out with the people I love together.
So I dont know what to do, should I say something to Justin, or my roommate or the other 'friends' who are totally ok with it all? or is that just gonna make it worse? I am in a rock and a hard place, I mean what I want is not that demanding. Being able to hang out with my friends and Dustin at the same time. Is that too much to ask?

A Day Without End

So today has been long, not just got-out-of-bed-10-hrs-ago long but just long and tiring.. I feel like I do a lot of complaining about being tired. When really I have no right, I know marines, and full time mom's who have more of a right to say they are tired than I do. So really just discount that statement about being tired. But today has been long and I still have more to do.. like a math test.. I passed the last 2 but this one should be kinda sketchy. See I'm not the best at math, who am I kidding I'm not even in the top 45 percentile. *but that's ok cause my mommy still loves me.* So we are learning about surface area and volume and stuff like that and my theory is that if I want to know if the liquid in one container will fit in the other containers I'll just pick up the first one and pour it in.... so you see, no math required, but since I am going to be teaching children from other countries English the supreme state of NY thinks that I should have a basis in elementary math. It's kinda degrading really like this one set of problems we had to do for our homework, in the introduction to the problems it tells you that these problems were given to a group of 9 yr olds as a basic assessment. Then I proceed to maul over the problems for about 10 min. It makes me feel dumb. But once I get this all done with, I'll never have to see another math book again.... then after that test I have to go to the WMIR (World Missions In Review) meeting. That's gonna be fun cause Susan who is supposed to be in charge is stepping down but we don't know who is taking up the responsibility yet. and it's a BIG responsibility.. but not one that I have anything to do with so that's really ok just that if we don't find someone to be in charge, nothing will get done.. So I'll keep you up dated on that too. After the meeting, *if you thought my day was over think again.* I have belt testing for karate. but I'm not really testing for real. just kinda. I'm an orange belt but I don't have everything for my purple belt yet, cause I don't get to class regularly. but I should be testing the week after break hopefully.

My Half-Boyfriend

Here's the deal, I am soooo tired and stressed and I am going to blow up any minuet now.. (plus I can't spell).. Boys are so dumb! So I have this boyfriend, well right now for the next couple of days he's my half-boyfriend. Don't ask me how that works, I'll tell you.
So we are comming up on our 2 month anniv. YEAH!! and I am absolutely loving having him as my boyfriend. he's sweet and treats me wonderfully well, even when I don't treat him well. SO you are prolly wondering why I am stressed and tired and it's his fault. Well, it's not his fault really, it's really God's doing (I can't say fault cause that just sounds condemning and you can't condem God). So He (God) is doing amazing things in my life, he's creating a new person and I can't wait to see what he is going to do. Ok so now I guess you are really confussed cause I have nothing bad to say about either of the people I am complaining about. But wait I'm getting to that. So although God is doing amazing things, they are draining me to no end (thus the tiredness)
*SIDE NOTE*
I love God, Some random girl in the Ed lab just walked up and gave me a peice of Apple pie!
*BACK AT IT*
So I'm tired because of God and my stress comes from Dustin, he's giving and giving and giving and I have nothing to give back b/c God is taking it all and wearing me out. So I had a talk with Dustin and we broke up like 3 times the other night and that was kinda stressful. So yesterday he writes me and asks if I want to go out and do something. so I say yes.. (even though I'm not sure if we are still together or what) so I asked where we were going and he wouldn't tell me (how sweet) but that opens a WHOLE can of worms because what is a girl to wear? so I tried on like 50 differant outfits till I picked one then I realized I didn't have shoes that matched that outfit with me at school which is a suprise cause I have SO many shoes with me at school. So I was late to Spanish because I was trying on outfits (I finally decided on kaki's and a pink sweater) Then I called my wonderful, Beautiful sister Stasi and wished her a happy birthday (she's 21!) and then we left and went out. So we drive to the Cheesecake Factory and have dinner which is so sweet it's a really nice place and the food was good, the company was even better (if you haven't realized it yet, he's trying to salvage what is left of our relationship, so he was on tip-top behavior) Then we went and saw the Polar Express, which was amazing, I have been wanting to see it (he didn't know that, Kudo's to you Dustin) If you have not seen it, you should. So, then we were leaving and OH I FORGOT! he made me this totally sweet list of promises (which on pain of death he better keep) I'll type them out later. but know that he was laying it on thick. so then we left the theater and we were going back to school and we were going to talk. (his idea) So we were talking about just stuff and then we started talking about us, and that turned into a crying screaming mess. so I decided that I still needed the two or three days to think about us but for now we are kinda dating and kinda on the fence, I'm not sure which way I will fall but I will keep you updated.

Sick and Overworked

That should be the title of my life! I have worked 26 hrs in the past 3 days. It's crazy.. and I'm sick of it so I called off today YEAH! Work is fun and I enjoy it don't get me wrong but.. sometimes, especially around holidays like Halloween and Christmas, you begin to wonder why you liked it in the first place. I work with kids, I don't baby-sit or nanny or work at a daycare, although sometimes I feel as if I get to do all of that at once. I work at a photography studio which targets kids under the age of 6yrs. So I work with kids. I love that part, the kids are the best but the parents I could do without. They are the ones who whine the most and the ones who are never satisfied with what you give them so they keep saying 'more, more' like a broken record... I'm a manager so when the other employees get sick of the monotonous tune of 'can't you.. can't you... can't you...' I'm the one they call to knock the record player around till it shuts up. I'm a nice person so I like to be nice to people but sometimes they are just plain annoying and unreasonable! like this one family came in and they wanted to have pictures taken of their family, so I sign them in and tell them that since they didn't have an appointment they may have to wait up to 25 min till we can get them into a camera room 'no problem' she says. So they sit down and wait. After 10 min she comes up to me and says in the most indignant tones ever (that's the other thing, I don't have to take you picture or be nice to you so shut up and sit down) so anyway she comes up to me and says 'we have been waiting almost half an hour now. when will you be ready for us?' OMG is she dumb, like didn't I tell her already that it might take up to 25 min till we could get to her... AND it's only been about 10. There must be a forcefield around our store that makes watches fly, cause I swear no one who comes in can tell time... I don't know why I was telling you that pointless story except to vent. the other day I was sitting just relaxing with my boyfriend and I started daydreaming about work and then I turned to him and said something, (partaining to my dream) .... I think I'm going insane...
and on top of all that I'm sick.. like spitting up blood sick. not cool. so I took off work today cause I'm sick and overworked..